Mallory???

My name is Mallory.... I think....???
So I forget my name sometimes. It is a funny thing to forget. I mean it has been stuck to me for 21 years you think I would remember it. Okay its not like I walk around some days wondering what my name is. It is more like when I was making my signature for the blog I kept staring at the different ways the signature "Mallory" were written. I kept thinking is that really my name? It looks so strange and unfamiliar. I for sure think it is my name but still. This is only one instance mind you it has happened to me throughout my life. Randomly I would wake up one morning nameless. I would try the name "Mallory" on and it would feel funny. I would have to wait till somebody actually called me by name to truly think that was my name. I have told some people this before. My husband thinks I am crazy. He is mostly right. Maybe one day I will meet somebody else with the same problem and we will become friends and help each other remember their own name.

What I Really Learned from College

On Friday I am graduating!!!
This is so awesome and crazy and many other things. I feel like I am becoming more and more adult everyday. It is... I don't know good? bad? ugly? fun? Eh. nothing really describes what it is. It just is.
So I am graduating with my Bachelors of Science in Behavioral Science with an emphasis in Social Work. I am interviewing for a job Thursday. My fingers and toes are crossed that I get it. It would be so awesome to have a job right when I graduate. If I got the job I also wouldn't die of boredom everyday while my husband goes to school and work and I sit at our apartment lifeless (ha ha double meaning).                                          So to commemorate my three years of college I thought I would make a list.

What I Really Learned from College:
1. B's get degrees.
Yes I know it is C's but for me it is B's. In high school I always got really good grades. I just was good at school. Well about the first year into college I realized that if I wanted to survive I needed to lower my standards a grade letter. Yes the A looks so lovely on the shiny transcript but a life outside of school and a B is even better.
2. When to skip class
Pretty much this is anytime you know you aren't miss anything and reading the chapter will take less time and you will get more out of it.
3. Speaking up
It always seems if you speak up a lot in class and the professor actually knows who you are you tend to do better at the end of the semester than if you don't speak up.
4. Sleep is not a priority, neither is a social life....
according to some professor. I would like to dedicate all my late nights to all those loving people who thought that just one more busy work assignment would kill me. No they did not kill me but they fried a few brain cells in the process.
5.High School never ends
Just when you thought you had escaped the loveliness of high school you find out that yup some people just don't know how to act grown up. They are so way too cool for that.
6. How to select a professor
Ratemyprofessor.com is the bomb. I never say bomb it just rhymed so it seemed like it should be used. Anyways if you do not at least try and find out about professors before you sign up for their class you are just asking for cruel and unusual punishment. I am not endorsing trying to find the easiest professors for the easiest grades. I am just saying that is always good to know beforehand what things might be like.
7. Procrasitination
I have always procrastinated. However, in college I have perfected this skill. I do my best in a time crunch. It doesn't work for everyone but it works for me.
8. Some people will just never get it
Not much more to say on that.
9.Confidence
Plain and simple if you are confident who you are and what you do you will always do better and doors of opportunity will open for you.
10. My passion
I think one of the biggest things I have learned is how much I love the field I am going into. When people ask me what I am going into, I answer, they end up cringing a little. I don't care. I love it. I love knowing that I will wake up every day and go into work to make just a little bit of difference in somebodies life. Yeah the pay is crappy but that's not why I am doing it.

I think I can, I think I can, I think I can!!!

So today in class I figured I should be productive and write down every assignment that I had left in the semester. Holy COW!!! I have so so so much to do in the next two weeks. I slowly choked back tears as I looked down at the list. Okay not really mostly my brain freaked out and then shut went and manually shut itself off. Gee thanks! How I am I supposed to do this without you brain? My brain is gone and I am on autopilot.  I calculated what I thought I would get for grades in each class and realized that I really can't kill my GPA in one semester so thus the auto piloted bare minimum student :D Its a good thing I am graduated at the end of the month. I don't think I could do another semester!

This is my to do list. It is long. Not due to the fact that I am the kind of person that writes every little thing down so that I can have pleasure in crossing it off. No this is a somewhat generalized list like "paper" means finish research project, analysis of data, then write pretty much 2/3 of the paper. I WILL SURVIVE!

Third time is the charm?

This will be the third blog I have started. The first one I started around the time my mother was diagnosed with cancer. It lasted a couple months then I decided to delete it because I got to the point where I truly didn't know what say anymore. There was so much going on in my life. In day to day living I could cover up the pain but sitting down at a computer and typing made me too vulnerable and scared me. Thus it no longer exists. The second blog is purely for me and only me and perhaps my future children if I am brave enough to let them see how crazy their mother was. This is my third blog. We will see how long it lasts.